Somewhere In Time, For Us

My life from the early 1990s has been through the French doors. After my first divorce, I had a Near Death Experience that took me through French Doors. I was taken into a yellow light to the other side and was shown many things like we all go through grades and schools and such. There was also another room that some people were taken to after they passed from this life as we know it until heaven. I was shown that there are Souls that share out experiences and they teach us things and we teach them things too. My maiden name was Lewis and then I became Lady Guinevere as an alias too for many years. I attribute lots of the things that she went through to what has happened in my life too. So on with my story of Somewhere In Time...

I was married for 15 years and had two daughters. We had lived in various places around Maryland and Virginia and then to Florida and back to Virginia. Then I was kicked out of where I was living and ended up in West Virginia. Nowhere did I meet my husband I am married to until then.

Here in West Virginia in my parent's cabin, they later gave to me. I came to live here in 1992 and then moved in the apartment my husband was living in in 1997. We have been living in it since 2001.

This is how it began.

I met Dennis at a Valentine's Day Singles Dance that read in the paper. Wow, what a fairytale come true. It took me 7 years after my divorce to meet him. The only thing is I met someone with the last name as his but he was already married and he was the DJ that played at those dances. Then he hooked me up with Dennis. Do you ever realize that you have met someone before? That was what the feeling was like when I first danced with him.

A few dances later he took me to get a bite to eat after the dance. We talked a good long time and he was in to trip me up and laugh at me and I knew this. haha! We stayed too long I think because they wanted to close the restaurant down. Funny that restaurant isn't there anymore.

So I went home and he went home. On the next date, I asked him what he did for a living. He said he was in college. 37 years old in college! Man, the words just popped out of my mouth that I didn't care. What?! Yes, and I could not take those words back. About then I think I was feeling something different. It was not love that I was feeling but a kind of wanting to get to know him better. I was not ready for a real romance just having fun.

He told me he had a KofC meeting and I thought it was the Kentucky Fried Chicken place and left and went home. I didn't know about the Roman Catholic Church or the organizations that are there such as The Knights Of Columbus. Same initials and easy to see why I thought he worked at the chicken restaurant.

He invited me to go with him to one of his Knights meetings and I said yes. I didn't know that he was the Grand Knight there then and I met some very nice people there. Ha! He wanted me to say something about him, but I didn't know much about him yet and one of the men said that he was asking me to do something I wasn't ready to do. So he was showing me off! Already!? I was not ready to do that.

A few months later he asked me to come to his apartment and I was a bit scared but my daughter kept pushing me out the door on this saying I got to get out of the house and meet people. I had a job and also was going to school at the same time so most times I was exhausted when I got home. My daughter would put me to bed and even wake me up in the morning. Funny that feeling that I used to do that with her when she was a little girl and now she got to do that with her mom. I was going to meet the man of my dreams, literally. I never really dreamt of him but of someone like him and that is just another thing that must have pulled us two together again this time. Though I didn't know it then but some37 years it comes all together and here is my story. Do you see what I am experiencing? How it seems that everyone was waiting for this and I had no idea at the moment. So the question came to me again and again and I did ask him a few times, "How Long Did You Wait For Me?

So things grew and I began to feel close to him more and more. OMG!! How he got me to come to him was those two fingers on his right hand doing the curl motion pulling my heartstrings! We went together for a year and a half until he asked me if I would marry him. Of course, I said YES! So then we were planning our wedding.

During that time before the wedding, I had to take a marriage class and also get my previous marriage annulled. Never had to do that, especially 10 years after the divorce, and did not know where anyone was. I somehow had to get my previous family's permission to let this rest know they thought it was OK. That priest said to me that he didn't know why or how I could be sitting in front of him and smiling. I don't know what kind of things they wrote to him and never will I told him I didn't think anyone would want to hear about the bad thing that happened. He passed a few years after that.

His life wasn't an easy one either so his mother told me. She also exclaimed to me that it was exactly 10 years to the day that he and I met. He lived in Texas at the time when his accident occurred and he was in a coma for three months. When he came out of the coma he thought he was one of his clients and that took a few weeks before he actually came back into his body.

He is younger than me about 3 years and that did not make a difference either. I had a dream and a poem that I wrote that told of forbidden love and there was a drastic chain of events. We lived on the land where a tsunami occurred and I got sucked into the water and drowned. I thought he was about another person that crossed my life and he was quite younger than I, but it makes more sense that it was him that was left on the land. I also thought that was Atlantis that we were living in. That is our somewhere in time that we first met and this life is another time and who knows how many there will be or even if this is the last one. Here is the Poem that I wrote

The Chasm in My Heart

I believe from the beginning it was just a silly little game,

Then slowly over the years, there began between us a searing flame.

And this kind of love would upset some people's apple carts,

And that began the chasm in our hearts

In my dream, you called out to me which you don't do a lot.

It was a dream that for our lives that you and I fought,

In a cataclysm of water that tore us apart,

And left us with a chasm in our heart

A great gem we shared us two,

A bright sparkling Ruby divided between me and you.

We were separated and torn apart,

And what it left was a chasm in our hearts.

The age difference divided you and me,

And we kept our silence as we knew we could never be.

I chose not you but to another I became a part,

And it left a chasm in your heart

So you found another, whom was similar to me,

And you told me to let you be.

So after many years, I have let you be and we have been apart,

And that left a chasm in my heart

From the beginning of Atlantis to the end, we have been twin souls,

But for this life one life we were not to stoke the embers of our love's coals.

As the deluge of water came.

I was swept in and the waters they did tear us apart,

This started the chasm in our hearts.

Frantically we reached out to each other.

You were on the land and I was in the water,

You had one half of our Ruby and I had the other part,

That which began the pain in the chasm of our heart

Deep from beneath the waters, I could see you,

From the deep, I swam up to reach you.

Once I emerged from the water with the Ruby that was my part,

We tried to close the chasm in our hearts.

I put the ruby against the back of your head,

In my dream, you once again showed me that the love we have is not dead,

It's just in this life we have to learn our Soul's other parts,

And so is this chasm in our hearts.

I could never admit that I really did love you,

So it was I who had to be the cruel one to divide me and you.

I knew that this kind of love burned way too hot

And for now, we must live with this chasm in my heart

If for only this lifetime it would be,

That you and I apart we should be.

Let the next life be that we shall be not divided from each other’s hearts,

And truly close that chasm in our hearts.

Seems like we were old friends or married before in that other lifetime and were split up. That is just the feeling I got with him. Strange things I felt about him and his life and surroundings and people he used to know.

On our dates, he would take me to the park to walk around and see things.

My song to him was by the Casinos, "Then You Can Tell Me Goodbye". Why did that song come into my mind when we were not even married and he did not ask me to for months after that?

He stuck to these words in this song, "Love Can Make You Happy", by Mercy and I just realized that. We have been in many hard times as it is when two people get married and don't let anyone tell you it is all Hunky Dory. Then this song comes to mind and it is as true as you can get and you better have your it's about you at all times

So it really does make me wonder: How long did he wait" because in the world and in heaven time is not the same. It is much slower on Earth.

Reminds me of a movie I once watched:

"Made In Heaven"

"After being dumped by his girlfriend, a boy runs away to California. But he ends up in heaven because he dies after trying to help a family from drowning in a river. In heaven he'll meet a beautiful girl, who has never reincarnated before.

• In 1952 while driving to California to start his life anew, twenty-something Mike Shea accidentally dies while doing a heroic act. Despite floundering in his life - he was having trouble holding a steady job and his supposed girlfriend was about to marry someone else - he was not ready to leave the living. In heaven, he learns that despite it being a fantastical other-world existence, he still has human emotions, such as romantic love, which he feels for a "new" soul he meets named Annie Packert (i.e. she has never been among the living on Earth), who in turn loves him. He also learns that one's next life is somewhat predetermined by their stay in heaven. So when Annie is sent to Earth for her first go around as a human, Mike pleads with the man in charge at heaven, Emmett Humbird, to locate him in his next human life at least in the same country so that he can find Annie. Emmett reluctantly agrees but only gives Mike thirty years in his next life to find her. The next lives of Annie and Mike are as Allison Chandler and Elmo Barnett respectively. Each carries a bit of their experience with each other in heaven to their new subconscious human being, Ally's manifesting itself in an imaginary childhood friend named Mike, whereas Elmo grows up to be a drifter but one not sure for what he is looking. With Elmo receiving a little help from both Emmett and some people from his past life, will the match made in heaven find its way to Earth before the thirty-year deadline?—Huggo

• A romantic, occasionally funny, drama about two souls who consummate their marriage literally in "Heaven". Mike Shea, in his first life, dies as a young man performing a heroic rescue. Shortly after arriving in "Heaven" he meets a new soul, Annie Packert, who has never lived on Earth before. The drama centers around their separation soon after being wedded and the burning question is whether they will reunite on Earth before time runs out or whether they are fated to eternal soul-searching.—Anonymous"

One Last Song For My Husband for sooo many years I can't see me with anyone else!